2010 is proving to be a terrible year for me. It's been just a week into the new year and already I've met with so much obstacles that last year pales in comparison to. So something new did happened, something I did not expect. But that's not the point. The point is the strange set of troubles it brought along with it. The point is that it complicated things. The point is that I almost lost a friend through it or maybe I did but I'm not sure. The point is that it is messing up my head because I'm a retard when it comes to dealing with relationships. The point is that I just want to point a gun at my head and end the thinking right now. It's not that I'm being suicidal or anything, but it just seems like an easy way to untie all the knots that have been forming. Just blow it all up into tiny bits and pieces, and everything will be clear once again.


This is a very sexy song by the way.

I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.
I don't know. I don't care.

Ok who am I kidding. I do care. Fuck.
Just shoot me in the head right now, this is getting too complicated.

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BNIB.
just got it 2 days ago.

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My head hurts.
I'm ending it.

i don't understand why people read my blog and assume i'm talking about them.

i can't do this anymore, goodbye spitsandspite i'm abdandoning you.

omg i'm so happy. :D:D
this is like some kind of wonderful.
phuture was crazy crowded i could hardly breathe, but i survived and i had cheesy sausage, milo and even cheese prata at the end of it all.
i'm a survivor. awesome posssum.

i yearn for freedom, and i've got it. i'm 21 and no matter how much i lament about how old i feel, i still want to retain some of my youth thank you very much.
my life was like this, and as much as i tried to redefine myself i'm afraid it's not working.
i love my decadence nights, love me or hate me.
i can be the hermit i want to be, but i can also want to get out of my damn shell to have FUN.

i love my friends, the people who stick by me, who listens to me and accepts me for who i am, unconditionally.
these are the people who keeps me going. we just need some non judging people in our life yes.
sometimes, i can't help but have these morbid thoughts (not suicidal) but life can get so tiring that i wish i could just sleep on forever.
but then, we always have to wake up and i realise that i should just make the best out of my life.
my results sucks, so? LIVE LIFE. aiya whatever. i love moet imperial :D:D

my life is changing from here, it will never be the same again,
i really just want you to be healthy again, i love you and sometimes i just can't bring myself to look you in the eyes.
it's guilt definitely, i wished i had been a better person, i wished i never threw tantrums at you. i wished i never shouted at you over insignificant things. i feel really horrible and i would rather be the one sick and in pain. it hurts really badly. i can't show it because i have to be strong.
things seemed to be the same, but it's not, because we're all closing up from one another. we have to be strong. so we all hide behind closed doors and cry.

alcohol give us this warped delusion about the world we're living in. it seems so right at the moment, maybe that's why people escape with alcohol. unsober is quite a nice feeling.
i miss this feeling, the heck it i just want to sit here and let all my emotions out. do not disturb.
why do we have to grow up, i hate growing up as well the responsibilities that come with growing up.

it's almost 6am and i should be sleeping, i've no idea what i'm doing here talking to myself.
verbal vomit they call it.

i'm typing so perfectly i'm actually really proud of myself.

Stuff that ruined my vacation:
1) Someone stole my handphone.
2) I fell down so now I have an ugly bruise on my knee
3) My doc martens gave me some weird cut/rash around my ankles.

Stuff that made my vacation in Korea motherfucking awesome:
1) Psychedelic pubs and shisha places.
2) Snow
3) ( PUNK RAWK XMAS )

Sentimental fool.